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Post by dougs on Apr 9, 2018 17:44:27 GMT
Brianna:
Thank you for sharing your feelings. That takes courage and trust. I know that I don't judge you whatsoever. I understand a bit about being bi-polar from other people who have shared their challenges so I understand that your emotions will swing around at times. I fully accept that. It is part of who you are. Remember, we all have personality quirks or challenges. It is all a part of being human. Be patient and tolerant of your own bi-polar challenges. Hopefully over time you will find ways to smooth out the highs and lows. Either way, we always welcome you here to share your stories and your views. I know that I'd like to see you write some album reviews that are posted about once a week. SONGS FROM THE WEST COAST is the next one coming probably towards the end of the week; love to hear what you have to say about this album.
Keep posting!
Doug
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Post by BiteUrLip on Apr 9, 2018 18:55:06 GMT
Don't worry Brianna, you're always welcome here! We are not going to dump members without sensible reasons.
Feel welcome to post, and like DougS said, also in the album review forum!
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Post by latitude on Apr 10, 2018 1:22:11 GMT
Personally, Brianna, I think you have amazing insight about yourself. A lot of people I know just deny deny deny about how they are. It was refreshing to read someone that is totally honest. You certainly aren't going to be judged here. Everybody is messed up in one way or another. Btw, my son is bipolar. Without a good medication that he finally found after a few years (he takes Seroquel), he'd be such a mess that he'd end up in the emergency room, and actually has a few times before that medication. Maybe you need to find the right meds. It takes awhile. Don't give up hope. Even Elton John understands about you (and cares). It's not like he's never been messed up. He gets it.
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Post by BiteUrLip on Apr 10, 2018 2:05:36 GMT
Latitude, you're talking the truth about medication (I actually use Seroquel as well, no side effects). Brianna, you just need to find the right ones, and also the more time passes, the more you'll learn about yourself, which makes it easier to avoid problematic situations. You can be relieved that you have friends here (just like on FB) who are ready to help any time! |
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Post by Deleted on Apr 10, 2018 2:41:41 GMT
Thank you everyone, I guess I was just afraid to tell you guys about my need for attention because I was scared that I would come off as arrogant and attention-seeking. Well, technically in a way, I am, but I really try not to do it intentionally. It just happens and I can't control it- and I'm not aware of it until later.
Latitude, I do try my best to be as aware of my problems as possible. I try to get to know myself so that I can help myself, but even this journey is not living up to my expectations. I find it very hard to live because I feel trapped in my own mind. Never do I intend to cause pain, conflict, or confusion on others. That's why I felt like it was necessary to tell you all this, because I wouldn't want to lie to you all or keep people wondering why I make such blunt decisions. Indeed I am an extremely honest person. There is nothing that I'll keep a secret (unless it has to be)- if people ask me, I'll tell it- simple as that.
I'm still working on the whole recovery process. I was supposed to see my therapist for two weeks now, but she was sick. I only saw her once so obviously nothing has really changed. I am supposed to see her on Thursday and I'm scheduled to see her every Thursday, so I really hope I can start the progress this week. I already saw my psychiatrist twice, and now I see him as needed- but he has me on Lamotrigine. I started on 20mg for one week and now I'm at 25mg. In two more weeks I will start my 50mg dose. But he said the pill really starts to show it works at doses between 100-120mg, so I have to ease up to that dose. That means that for like a month in a half, I won't change much, despite progress being made.
Doug, I really want to begin posting here more, but I'm still in a bit of a mental crisis and uneasy situation. Since I've gotten out of the hospital, I have not found myself truly happy yet. I'm simply not like myself. I'm still numb and in shock from what I've gone through. So much so that the images of me attending the ward has haunted me and tortured me as I sleep. I will cry myself to sleep thinking of all the things I've had to endure is just a month or so. I'm really, truly honestly scared because I have absolutely NO idea what my future holds for me. And I never felt so terrified, helpless, and alone in my life. My point is that I just don't feel mentally ready, relaxed, or myself to engage in any deep discussions here yet- even typing this is taking so much out of me.
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Post by BiteUrLip on Apr 10, 2018 3:22:56 GMT
I have also experience about Lamotrigine, but I didn't benefit of it enough and besides it had an awful taste.  If it works for you, then that's a relief! |
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Post by Deleted on Apr 10, 2018 4:07:29 GMT
Well, the first medication they had me on was Aripiprazole, which they took me off of when I had horrific seizure-like side effects and the fact that it was not a medicine that worked for long-term usage. So now I'm trying Lamotrigine. My body is tolerating it so far but it's too low of a dose to see the desired effects.
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Post by BiteUrLip on Apr 10, 2018 4:34:34 GMT
Well, the first medication they had me on was Aripiprazole, which they took me off of when I had horrific seizure-like side effects and the fact that it was not a medicine that worked for long-term usage. So now I'm trying Lamotrigine. My body is tolerating it so far but it's too low of a dose to see the desired effects. Okay, well I'm keeping my fingers crossed. By the way you can also leave feedback to us, what would you like to see in this board! It would be cool to have a chat room here, but I bet that ProBoards doesn't allow that. |
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Post by Deleted on Apr 10, 2018 4:42:11 GMT
I'd like to see a thread dedicated to Elton John's physical appearance- all jokes side |
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Post by BiteUrLip on Apr 10, 2018 5:42:11 GMT
I'd like to see a thread dedicated to Elton John's physical appearance- all jokes side I'll think about that. It's a bit difficult from male's point of view (and no, I'm not gay... ). |
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Post by Dr Johnny Fever on Apr 10, 2018 10:26:41 GMT
Yes, as hard as it is to believe, I also have no interest in looking at how small Elton's dick is...
My meds are...sertraline (100mg) and biguelle xl (200mg) but have been on as high as 600mg...they did want to put me on a higher dose than the 200 I'm on now, but I don't take the higher dose (around 250-300mg) ..600 really knocked me for six, so I went cold turkey and stopped everything (very, very dangerous, my wife at the time was told to take me to A&E, but I wouldn't go, was in bed for a week, didn't eat, didn't drink, hot and cold sweats etc, feeling like shit and crashed about two months later)...went back on meds again...but was very, very reluctant to take a high dose of biguelle, went as high as I'm on now (200mg) I can and do skip taking sertraline for a day or two, but can't do without biguelle, only thing that makes me sleep, if I don't take it I can't sleep..
Retro Reginald, things will get better, but as the saying goes..Rome wasn't built in a day, things will take time..as I've said before, try to do things that make you happy...
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Post by Deleted on Apr 10, 2018 16:57:05 GMT
That sounds horrific. I am just starting on meds and I never had taken anything like these before so I'm trying to follow directions and take all precautions from the start. P.S. I also have a huge sleep problem which is why they have me on Mirtazapine too, even though it's an anti-depressant, it helps me sleep like a charm.
OH MY GOD I will DEFEND Elton's dick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's HUUUUUUGE OMFG Literally last night I was going through my folder of his dick (I have a legit folder on my phone full of the bulges in his pants) and all I could think over and over again was, "Damn he's HUUUUUUGE!" and "My GOD where does he put that thing!!!?" Yet again this is from the same girl that sleeps with his nude every night!!! Not ashamed! He is so sexy and I always have orgasms when I see those bulges stick straight out his pants, like free it Elton c'mon it's definitely your most beautiful feature!!!!!!!!!11
Fuuuuuck I need to be put on a stronger anti-depressant to decrease my libido HA!
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Post by Deleted on Apr 11, 2018 1:55:18 GMT
LOL I LOVE HOW NOBODY COMMENTED (Probably 'cause I lost my mind) LOL I'm so weird!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Post by latitude on Apr 11, 2018 10:57:47 GMT
LOL I LOVE HOW NOBODY COMMENTED (Probably 'cause I lost my mind) LOL I'm so weird!!!!!!!!!!!! As far as *I* go, I'm an Elton John fan because of his music, which is the best I've ever heard in my LIFE!. I couldn't possibly care less for the other stuff, so I'm just not interested. I probably shouldn't speak for other people on this board, but I have a feeling that's how most of the others feel too. |
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Post by Dr Johnny Fever on Apr 11, 2018 16:38:01 GMT
That sounds horrific. I am just starting on meds and I never had taken anything like these before so I'm trying to follow directions and take all precautions from the start. P.S. I also have a huge sleep problem which is why they have me on Mirtazapine too, even though it's an anti-depressant, it helps me sleep like a charm. OH MY GOD I will DEFEND Elton's dick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's HUUUUUUGE OMFG Literally last night I was going through my folder of his dick (I have a legit folder on my phone full of the bulges in his pants) and all I could think over and over again was, "Damn he's HUUUUUUGE!" and "My GOD where does he put that thing!!!?" Yet again this is from the same girl that sleeps with his nude every night!!! Not ashamed! He is so sexy and I always have orgasms when I see those bulges stick straight out his pants, like free it Elton c'mon it's definitely your most beautiful feature!!!!!!!!!11 Fuuuuuck I need to be put on a stronger anti-depressant to decrease my libido HA! Sorry to disappoint you...as a bloke, he's not that big... |
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