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Post by Deleted on Mar 30, 2018 6:14:33 GMT
I don't normally post here anymore because, well quite frankly, nobody really gives a shit or comments on my stuff anymore, but I was told to share this here so here it goes. March 21st, 2018 Dear Brianna,
What an incredible letter to receive. I am beyond moved by your story, and so very proud of you. Life is worth living and sometimes we have to crash and burn to come out the other side. I am so pleased I could help you- miracles happen and you and living proof. Congratulations~
Love, Elton
I've NEVER felt so LOVED before by the man that gave me hope when all I wanted to do was die. I came home today and couldn't believe what was sitting there waiting for me. An OPENED envelope... with my book falling half out of it! Darn mailmen almost lost the next chapter in my life! Immediately, I hyperventilated as I knew what it was, turning on my phone and filming my reaction as I sat there in utter disbelief. You can watch that reaction here: www.youtube.com/watch?v=QDu0GtdY9NII couldn't believe it. I thought I was DREAMING. I thought there was no way he would've read my letter and even take the time to RESPOND so graciously to it. And yet here I was, holding my proof. Elton held signed THE very book that I held so close with me when I was suffering at the hospital. The book that many other sufferers, along with I, held as well. He signed the date in which he wrote his letter on the top right corner. The imprint of the pen he used still bled on to the next few pages, and he even kept the bookmarks I had on each page I loved still marked. Lucky wasn't the only sensation I was feeling. Finally, for the first time, I was relieved to no longer cry... Instantly I felt myself crawl out of that dark place and smile for the first time in days... a strange new feeling for me, but most certainly welcome. It was the greatest letter I could ever receive in my life... I have support from the very man that I used to get depressed over, because I didn't have support from him... but now this is the first step in my healing process... support. Support from the man I begged each night for. He knows so much more about me than my own mother knows! If you thought fan letters were bogus, you'd need to look no further. This is the story of a love between one generous man and his honest, true fans. You will NEVER find a love quite the same as his. I've gotten that same amount of love that I put in returned to me, yet even better than what I anticipated. This is nothing shy of true love. A miracle has happened, and as told by Elton John, I am one of them! THANK YOU so much and more and beyond what anything in life can express for your true love, Elton!
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Post by BiteUrLip on Mar 30, 2018 7:13:09 GMT
This community doesn't have many active posters, so that's why messages generally don't get many replies. Let's hope this gets some!
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Post by dougs on Mar 30, 2018 8:34:23 GMT
Brianna:
First of all, keep posting! I have always enjoyed your enthusiasm for Elton and your love of music plus your honesty and courageousness to share your very human feelings and health concerns. I actually came across a couple of your videos on YouTube recently including the most overlooked EJ songs. It was interesting how many comments that you got. Your EJ collection of music and posters and everything else is stunning!!
Regarding this post of the letter from Elton; this IS special! This is a keeper. Just imagine how many letters that Elton receives from fans and YOU were the one to get a response. If he answered every letter he would die of exhaustion! Whoa! Thanks for sharing it.
Keep on posting. As one of the regular posters here I must say that I really enjoy your posts; they are refreshing, insightful, and above all - honest. Make sure to review albums too!
Doug
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Post by latitude on Mar 30, 2018 14:47:25 GMT
Wonderful letter Brianna! I can see why you'd be very excited. Must have taken some time to decipher though. I think you are very special to him. Also I imagine, as well as him cheering you, that you made *him* happy too. And that must be a really good feeling. I mean you made Elton John happy and probably made his day.
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Post by latitude on Mar 31, 2018 13:04:29 GMT
Oh, and you're right. People don't respond sometimes to posts on this board. I would even like it if you responded to the replies on this particular thread. At least you did get some response.
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Post by Dr Johnny Fever on Mar 31, 2018 19:47:02 GMT
Also don't forget we all don't live in the same time zone or come on the board everyday..
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Post by Deleted on Mar 31, 2018 20:02:08 GMT
Yeah I just don't have the motivation and joy of posing here anymore, I guess it just gets boring. Maybe I'm looking for more than what I should expect- for some reason I just get depressed here. I always feel unwanted or maybe I'm just not getting along with anyone. When I made my first post, I was flooded with comments and I just expected it to be as full and grand as that each time. But I could just be selfish and demanding. So I figured I'm better off not posting here. Sorry that I sound like a bitch. I'm so exhausted. And I'm fucking mentally unstable and stupid. But I guess I don't need other people's words to tell me how I should appreciate this letter- I'm happy on my own with it, thanks. I'm so sorry for being so blunt and rude. I'm literally fighting my mind right now as I type. A part of me is pissed off and the other side of me feels guilty.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 31, 2018 20:04:20 GMT
For some reason this has made me extremely depressed and I think something "triggered" me here because I'm literally sitting here in a ball of tears and I don't know why
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Post by BiteUrLip on Mar 31, 2018 20:48:52 GMT
Brianna, no-one is going to demand you to be here, this is just an open message board so people come and go how they want. I just wanted you to chime in for this unusual occasion (the letter), because I knew folks would love it. And they did!
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Post by Deleted on Mar 31, 2018 22:32:43 GMT
To me I don't see how anyone loved it, but I guess I'll take your word for it.
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Post by dougs on Apr 1, 2018 1:40:04 GMT
Brianna:
I know that I really enjoyed the letter that you shared with us. As I mentioned, it is really quite special for Elton to respond to you like that and for you to share it with us was very giving and thoughtful. The letter will be something that you are unlikely ever to forget!
I still encourage you to post. The board is somewhat quiet with just a few people who regularly respond and post but that doesn't mean that your posts and my posts and others aren't appreciated. Bring your enthusiasm for Elton's music here any time that you feel like it. Most of the posters here are older and don't post as much as we used to. We need the occasional shot of enthusiasm that you often bring!!
By the way, do you collect Elton EPs? If so, which ones do you have?
Doug
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Post by Dr Johnny Fever on Apr 1, 2018 11:38:57 GMT
I can understand your feelings, as I'm also bipolar...but if I'd got that letter from Elton it'll be in a frame and up on the wall...I've never ever wrote a letter, sent a card or anything else to him, as I don't think I'd ever get anything back from him (I don't think I'd be that lucky) and it would probably give me a little bit of a high, thinking I may get something back, before pissing me off a bit when I don't.. I wouldn't know what to say, I'd like a signed photo that he sends out to people, many of them have been posted on this board over the years. Best I've done is getting his autograph on a bit of card the last time I went to a show (and think I only got that as I shouted that it was my birthday, which it would have been the next day) maybe I should have a go and send a letter for a autograph photo...as for your bipolar, things will get better, it'll take time to sort out your meds...it won't happen over night..if you don't feel up to posting on this board anymore...then don't, as much as I and others will miss your posts...it's what makes you happy, that you need to sort out...I don't know if you'll see this post..but your in my thoughts...
i also replied to your other post, with a bit of info on bipolar.
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Post by latitude on Apr 2, 2018 16:11:16 GMT
I can understand your feelings, as I'm also bipolar...but if I'd got that letter from Elton it'll be in a frame and up on the wall...I've never ever wrote a letter, sent a card or anything else to him, as I don't think I'd ever get anything back from him (I don't think I'd be that lucky) and it would probably give me a little bit of a high, thinking I may get something back, before pissing me off a bit when I don't.. I wouldn't know what to say, I'd like a signed photo that he sends out to people, many of them have been posted on this board over the years. Best I've done is getting his autograph on a bit of card the last time I went to a show (and think I only got that as I shouted that it was my birthday, which it would have been the next day) maybe I should have a go and send a letter for a autograph photo...as for your bipolar, things will get better, it'll take time to sort out your meds...it won't happen over night..if you don't feel up to posting on this board anymore...then don't, as much as I and others will miss your posts...it's what makes you happy, that you need to sort out...I don't know if you'll see this post..but your in my thoughts... i also replied to your other post, with a bit of info on bipolar. I have a problem posting to someone that I find out doesn't want to be here, and in fact isn't *going* to be here. It's kind of a waste of time. I mean, she may well never even see it. BUT, you're here, so I can post to you. I did send something to Elton a few years ago. I sent the single sleeve of 'Blue Eyes' and a letter, and a month later I did get a reply! A very nice autograph on that sleeve with love and thanks. And I did get a bit of a high. So, if you could find out the address to send it to (I don't have it now), then you might actually get an answer. The autograph I got is on display at all times.
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Post by Dr Johnny Fever on Apr 3, 2018 19:06:54 GMT
I can understand your feelings, as I'm also bipolar...but if I'd got that letter from Elton it'll be in a frame and up on the wall...I've never ever wrote a letter, sent a card or anything else to him, as I don't think I'd ever get anything back from him (I don't think I'd be that lucky) and it would probably give me a little bit of a high, thinking I may get something back, before pissing me off a bit when I don't.. I wouldn't know what to say, I'd like a signed photo that he sends out to people, many of them have been posted on this board over the years. Best I've done is getting his autograph on a bit of card the last time I went to a show (and think I only got that as I shouted that it was my birthday, which it would have been the next day) maybe I should have a go and send a letter for a autograph photo...as for your bipolar, things will get better, it'll take time to sort out your meds...it won't happen over night..if you don't feel up to posting on this board anymore...then don't, as much as I and others will miss your posts...it's what makes you happy, that you need to sort out...I don't know if you'll see this post..but your in my thoughts... i also replied to your other post, with a bit of info on bipolar. I have a problem posting to someone that I find out doesn't want to be here, and in fact isn't *going* to be here. It's kind of a waste of time. I mean, she may well never even see it. BUT, you're here, so I can post to you. I did send something to Elton a few years ago. I sent the single sleeve of 'Blue Eyes' and a letter, and a month later I did get a reply! A very nice autograph on that sleeve with love and thanks. And I did get a bit of a high. So, if you could find out the address to send it to (I don't have it now), then you might actually get an answer. The autograph I got is on display at all times. Yes, I know what you mean..about posting for her to never read it...but hay ho...as for a letter to Elton, been thinking about it for a few days now...and I'll guess I'll think about for a few more day and then do nothing..address wise isn't a problem, as I live in the very sunny and warm U.K..I'd send it to his uk address.. anyone else think Elton could have been a Doctor with handwriting like that?
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Post by Deleted on Apr 9, 2018 16:40:17 GMT
I don't know how or why I remembered to come back on here but I think boredom lead to it. I have a huge problem where I find everything in life to be depressing and a problem, so I assume that my posts are a burden and I am a nuisance and it would be a waste of time here. I also have a stupid attention/ego problem, where if my post or thing doesn't live up to my expectations, I get very moody, bitchy and angry. So I start to get rude and hostile. I like to have the attention poured on me so I can feel important, justified, and accepted. It's really a horrible thing to deal with because I know in the back of my mind that the world doesn't revolve around me, but without that kind of attention, I feel like I lack support. And one of the reasons why I tried to kill myself was because I felt as if nobody was taking me seriously, as if their attention was not enough for me. But, being bipolar means that I cycle through these emotions, so one minute I might be okay with being alone, and the next, I might starve for attention. It's so bad that I will look at the way I acted earlier and get pissed at my actions- for example I'm already pissed that I decided not to post here anymore, but yet I know later on I'm going to agree that I shouldn't post here and then I will go back and forth for forever. Fortunately, I have not felt remorse for receiving this kind of a letter from Elton, as it's giving me the love, attention, support and encouragement from someone I especially dream it from. But if I must be completely honest, I didn't feel like posting here because there wasn't enough people to satisfy my level of attention, as I was expecting hundreds of sappy comments explaining how I was so amazing for acquiring such a treasure from Elton. Trust me, I KNOW how fucked up this is and how damaging it is to relationships. It's not the quantity of the messages, it's the quality. I SHOULD ideally know that you all appreciate it and don't necessarily show it in the way I expect. But, for some reason I go into different states of mind where I am unable to think rationally like that and I truly believe that without the world living to my expectations. So when things don't live up to that, then that's where I lose friends, ruin things for myself, get depressed and think suicidal. And actually, just days before Elton replied back to me, I was SO convinced that he didn't love me, didn't receive my letter and didn't care that I was already thinking of a way I should kill myself- I give up too fast and I was expecting too much. I was expecting him to reply back in exactly two weeks, so when I got my letter in like 16 or 17 days, it was pure torture for me. Something like that wouldn't bother the normal person or even pose a concern, as he is so busy and famous so delays are normal. But I can never think like that or think positively enough to convince myself logic things. I constantly dream of what my idea of success if with ever little given situation, and when I don't succeed at those things, I really become someone I'm not. So I'm sorry that I act this way, and I don't mean to start a pity party on you guys, but I wanted to tell you why I really felt like not posting here because it was such a random decision and I know it may have confused some people. I'm not expecting anyone here to like me after this, after all normal people are wise not to spend their time with someone who is so ungrateful and dependent on attention.
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